Why Do I Do The Things I Do?

This is the question that has been on my mind this week. There are so many things we are taught in our lives by people who are supposed to be there to steer us right. From the parents we have to the teachers to the preachers to the friends and parents of friends and grandparents and other family members. So how do I ever determine who God created me to be? This is the question that has been weighing heavily on my mind of late. I have made it my mission that I am going to spend time alone with God for as long as it takes to answer that question. Apart from influence of church, apart from influence of those who are supposed to be there to teach us the truth. I have decided that I am going to become a student of the Word of God. I am going to rededicate every day of my life to study until I am convinced in whom I believe and until I have the confidence to never again be swayed by those who claim to have your best interest, especially spiritual interests at heart.
I am not convinced anymore that the way we do church in America today is what the early church looked like and what God meant when He said forsake not the assembling of yourselves together. I am on a mission to seek God's heart for His church today. He is coming back to receive a bride spotless and without wrinkle. How many of you want to be a part of that bride?

Legalism is a crutch and a replacement for faith, I am convinced of this fact. Having a list of do's and don'ts takes out any need for walking with God by faith and truly having a real father/child relationship. All I have to do is follow a set of instructions and then I should be OK. All I have to do is to look to the church to tell me what a Christian should look like. I am sorry this is no longer good enough for me. I have a feeling the church cares much more about what I look like and what I do then God does.
I believe God cares about my heart. He cares about my motives of why I do what I do. We sing He is my all in all, but what does that really mean?? I intend to make God, my Father my all in all in everything I do and I pray the Lord will help me to be a leader in bringing people back to the fundamentals of the gospel of Jesus Christ! Most of what is on my heart to do right now will go against the grain of the mainstream Christian today, but that is OK. I have been rejected and austersized before for giving my life over to the Lord Jesus Christ. Paul says we should count it all joy when we are persecuted all the day long. Jesus is my joy! He paid the price for my mansion in heaven!! I owe my life to Him and I intend on being radical for Jesus and stop being religious.